Heya, I'm Paige and I can truly say that I've known how skinny tastes. I've always been fat, weighing 12lbs as a baby to this very day, weighing 157lb.
I've always had a bad relationship with food,it being my best friend, aside from sleep. It will always be there, whenever i'm happy or feeling down. (well thats what I thought)
You see people may look in the mirror and see themselves as fat, but I always said to myself 'well I'm not THAT fat'. Not until I moved to another sixth form, where undoubtedly I am the biggest girl in my entire year, if not school, did i truly see how ft I was, and how much damage I was doing to my body.
In secondary school I had started getting into fashion and really loved putting outfits together, yet I noticed that my fat rolls just wouldn't compliment my fashion forward outfits.So for a quick fix around 2009 I signed up to Pretty Thin and learned all the tricks of the trade for an ana life. Besides losing 10lbs, I quickly put them back on- and more!
With hindsight I feel sickened by my behavior then, as I had known a girl in my class who suffered from anorexia and I was so desperate to be thin I WAS JEALOUS OF HER! I wanted to be thin at any cost and if that meant being anorexic, I was all for it!
How ignorant was I! I'm so happy I didn't go down that path, as I've seen it claim the lives of many people. I want to do this the healthy way, hence my need for this blog.
At first I wanted to lose weight because I wanted attention from the guys and for the girls to be jealous of me.
But no! I'm on this weight loss journey for myself. I don't want to turn 50 and realise that I have never truly taken care of my body. I don't want to be old and never have known how it feels to not have muffin top. God has given me this precious gift of my body, and he has left me to look after it, which I have failed to do and I must rectify that!
I'm not going to blame any of my life events to my over eating, I just want to forget the past and look to a brighter future.
So I hope you can all join me on this journey to weight loss, I know it's going to be hard. But, I always remember this- ' anything worth having, is always hard to get' <3